Sting & Instinct

I would like to use Malay+English in my dearest Dari Dalam Lubuk Hati today.But, plz 4give my English..

First of all, sting?Oh actually I'm suffering from severe pain in my right eye..Specifically, my eyelid..(very painful, I can't stand it).I went to the clinic yesterday and the doctor was not very sure about it.So, he just gave me panadol(yes panadol ok!) & eye drop. Unfortunately, it became worse! Sabar jelah....

That was just a short story about sting...I named it sting because I don't really know what is the cause of my swollen eyelid..huh

Secondly, from the deep inside my heart.(dari dalam lubuk hati.hehe)..I have a very strong instinct I guess. So, I HATE to caught someone cheating to me! It makes me feel terrible..Be honest la..bukan aku nak bunuh kau pun..bila dah kantoi,parah kan? This kind of thing reminds me about my experiences. BAD EXPERIENCES. I can't force everyone to like me. I'm not perferct, I'm not the very best, I'm very aware of that ok!.As my lecturer said, there are loads of people who are much3 better than u, always keep that in mind. Don't demand someone else to be perfect if u are NOT!.Learn to accept people..Yes, I admit that as human being, we are seeking for the perfectness. Me too..Sometimes I also advise people to change..but then, at the same time, I'll try my very best to accept them the way they are.easy right? I'm feeling VERY2 DISAPPOINTED now. Kalau nak bergurau sekalipun..ada limitlah..we might think that was a joke. A stupid joke. But how about other people perception?They might take it seriously.And I'm the one who have to face it.DAMN!Ok I'll share a simple example (not a real story). Your friend was telling a joke actually to another friend. Something that insulting u. but it WAS A JOKE! then, your friend who heard or read about it, BELIEVE in that story because its logic. The truth was u didn't do that actually!4 God sake.So, the other friend might understood u as u did bad things like that..n he/she might spread the news to the others too.biasalah, berita hangat kan?

Please la...think think think think n think before u take any action. it may harm others ok!

*NOT IN A GOOD MOOD*

Cuti Yang Sakit

Wah wah...lama x membelogkan diri kan...Actually aku dah pulang ke tanah semenanjung terchenta 2May yang lalu..tapi kena melawat2 company lah pulak selama seminggu...8 company dah dilawati....8 je...jap...ulang balik...LAPAN HOKEYY....nampak sikit kan??sehari 2 company...pagi kul 5.30 dah bangun...kami suka melawat2 company ni...makan2..jalan2...tapi kalau company tu xbg refreshment, time post mortem, mesti kami ckp.."oh..xboleh dtg lagi company ni la sbb kami kelaparan"...kak zakiah kepala komplen bab2 refreshment ni..haha..BUT overall, byk yg kami enjoy...ha...aku paling2 enjoy gi HOSPITAL SUNGAI BULOH..neurology department..barulah rasa..nak kata rasa..xdelah rasa tapi at least share la apa yg dialami oleh pesakit2 kat situ..kesian sgt tengok..ada yg terbaring lemah...some part of the skull kena tebuk..nurse tu cakap..sometimes boleh nampak tau otak tu berdenyut2..ada sorang pakcik ni nampak excited sgt dgn our visit..so..aku n kwn2..pi la berborak2 dgn pakcik tu n wife dia..pakcik tu pun alhamdulillah dah nampak OK n dah nak keluar wad dah pun...

Sambung cite pasal Lawatan Industri...kami xmengalami sebarang masalah besar except for the bus driver..boleh plak pakcik tu marah2 sbb kena hantar kami pi jalan yg sesak cam pudu..bila lambat skit pun nak kene marah.hello..please lah, kami BAYAR kot kat UTM..ke mana2 pun kami nak pergi,terpulang pada kami lah..bukan banyak sgt tempat yg kami pegi pun...pakcik tu bukan saja tunjuk protes ngan marah2 sambil drive tapi dia drive dengan cara yang merbahaya.kesannya:

1. TEDDY 2 kali tergolek kot...(ini serius lawak)..kesian..tapi lawak..so terpaksa gelak jugaklah..hahahaha

2. Kak sam pun hampir tercampak tapi berjaya disambut oleh org belakang.

3. Kaki aku lebam terlanggar besi sbb pakcik tu bwk laju2 n brake..

4. Mirol muntah2..(erk..actually ni sbb salahguna mknn...i mean, byk sgt makan)

dan mcm2 lagi....pun begitu, aku dengan yakinnya gi jerit "kawan2, pakai seat belt!!"...pakcik tu maybe terasa n slower down dia nye speed..haha

Then, selesainya lawatan tu, teddy, mirol n malia follow aku balik naik komuter. Dlm komuter tu kan ade icon untuk bg keutamaan tempat duduk pada org tua, patah kaki..n satu gambar tu dia tunjuk org n perut dia bulat.(sure utk preggies).Aku sambil gelak n ckp kat teddy.."teddy!dia suh bg keutamaan kat ko!"hahahaha....teddy pun pegang perut dia n ckp "sengal kau tun...tapi betullah tu utk aku!"...kelakar2..

Kat rumah..mereka bertiga menjadi mangsa buli Aiman n Baby, adik2ku yang nakal.Aiman bg nama baru kat dorang...dia panggil Mirol Abg So'eb, Teddy Abg Mamat n Malia Kak Rojak..Ok aku xtau ape tujuan dia panggil mcm tu n yang paling xboleh blah nama So'eb ngan Rojak..hahahah..baby lak lompat2 kat Teddy..dia ckp.."best la lompat2 kat abg Mamat ni..melantun2"....hahahah

Mesti dorang serik nak datang..Malia ckp..serik2..dahla nama buruk betul aku dapat...haha..xpalah...dorang mmg camtu..geng kita pun mulut dak insurans..dapat ngan adik aku..mmg buku bertemu ruas!

Ok..Cuti2 ni memasak je hari2...nnt sambung cite....xoxo

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BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right

For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful, baby

You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through
Through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me, ooh, baby

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach

You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love, I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me

Maybe, I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because
I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You were always there for me, the tender wind that carried me
The light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

Specially dedicated to all my sayangs especially mak abah...my dear syaikhul...kakak n adik2...tak lupa juga kwn2....dah mcm ucapan menang award pulak..haha...kamu semua adalah kekuatan saya....

Mak n Abah: No words can describe how much I love u...How much I adore u...Adik nakal n degil dari dulu sampai skarang tapi mak n abah tetap cuba sedaya upaya untuk penuhi apa yg adik nak..Bila kena marah..adik merajuk...(ye..kuat merajuk dr kecik lagi kan)..Bagi duit..boros...Kadang2 xnak dengar cakap...Apa pun...u both are the greatest mak n abah in this world!I'll try my best to excel n to make both of u proud of me....Sorry 4 all that I did wrong... I Love u!!InsyaAllah adik jd anak yg lebih baik.......

beloved mak abah

**Kalau mak n abah baca ni mesti cakap adik tulis je lebih..buat nye tidak..hahaha**


Syaikhul Al-Hafiz: Sy tau saya banyak menguji kesabaran awak...saya tau sy sengal...tp awak pun sengal jugak..hehehe....Thx sbb ada dgn sy masa susah n senang kat sini...thx jaga kebajikan sy kat sini...Thx jugak sbb bersabar dgn sy....sy tau awk nak sy jadi yg terbaik....xda kata yang boleh gambarkan apa yg sy rasa...thx 4 being my syg=).sy hargai kehadiran awk dlm idup sy...sorry jugak kalau ada salah....awk peminat setia sy....hehehe....awk je yg sudi dgr sy nyanyi tanpa jemu...awk supportive...awk baik ngan sy..family n kwn2 sy....plus awk protective...sy tau awk xsuka org buli2 sy..(dah besar gajah pun kena buli yer..heheheh)....walaupun kadang2 awk nye angin kus2 naik...sy tetap syg awk....sy tau...awk tegur utk kebaikan...kepada pembaca2 di luar sana...cik abg sy ni sengal orgnya..tapi hati dia baik....dia juga pandai melawak yg boleh bg org pecah perut....satu lg dia ni family man..anak2 buah dia..mcm anak2 dia....cuba tengok rambut dia..makin nipis x?bukan sbb dia pening fikirkan masa depan...sbb sy baru suh aunty kat kedai gunting tu trim rambut dia bg nipis...hahahaha....ok2 serius...dia juga kuat...jgn pandang dia kecik okeyy...oh yg paling penting...dia syg saya!(perasan..hahaha)

syaikhul al-hafiz

**P.S, I Love You**

Kakak yg sengal: Ni lah ceti haram adik...slalu bersubahat ngan adik...tapi adik slalu terpecahkan rahsia kakak kat mak..hahahah...sorylah...tipu mak dosa beb!adik jujur jela ngan mak....jgn marah ha.....kakak garang..suka marah adik...adik tau kakak dengki sbb bila adik lahir,.kakak kurang perhatian(hahahaha padan muka)....sbb tu kakak slalu cubit2 adik...sebab tu kakak suka pusing2 baby court nak cengkam muka adik masa adik kecik...adik tau..mak cite...hahaha..tapi adik tau jugak yg kakak syg adik....ngaku jelah..xyah tipu.....walaupun adik slalu susahkan kakak...kakak tetap syg adik kan?sbb tu kakak slalu asingkan duit nak belikan adik baju ngan kasut...sbb tu kakak marah kalau org buat jahat n buat adik sedih..kan kakak kan?adik pun xsuka org buat kakak...tapi adik tau..kakak kan hati kering...lagi kejam dr org...namun begitu...kakak sy sangat sensitip...dia menangis2 n merajuk sampai menjerit2 seperti tarzan kalau dia xpuas hati..(no doubt)......apapun...I love u lah kakak oiii....

kakak sy.dia suka mkn.haha

**kakak mesti ckp adik aku bangang..hahaha**

kepada adik2ku....akak syg korang jugak walaupun korang pun sama degil je ngan akak.....dikya..u have to change la...semakin menghampiri ketarzanan kak dirah....hahahaha...aiman..pleaselah jadi insan berguna kat muka bumi ni...nak senduk nasi pon xreti mmg nak kena luku kpala....baby yg gemok...xyahla nak moody2 menjerit xtentu pasal.....oh ye..jgn kedekut sgt....

aiman...ni je dia tau..makan..makan..makan...


dikya ni slalu tercicir..kwn2..sy ada sorg lagi adek ye..ni minah kat gambar ni


baby..si bongsu yang ngegeh dah kuat bebel.kami panggil dia karam singh ALIA

**rindu adik2 sy...**


My dearest friends...aku syg korg jugak..
these are important peoples in my life....sy syg mereka sgt2...sy sanggup buat apa saja utk mereka...xde sape boleh halang saya...walaupun mereka sendiri......................

ni kwn sy nurul amalia..dia ngokngek..tgk tu dia jual CD nak cari duit lebih..hehe

Sardin CAP CINTA???

Lama dah aku tak mencoret2 kat blog ni....Busy2 xtentu hala heh....Ok hari ni ade satu cerita....Bf aku dgn berbaik hatinya nak belikan barang dapur..yelah kesian agaknya dgn aku, malia n nana yg dok makan ikan kering..telur hari2...hahaha...sedihnya la kami ni..tp xpa..kami suka mkn camtu..biar kami ada duit bersenang-lenang pun kami tetap cari makanan yg itu jugaklah....ok..sambung cerita...syaikhul tanya.."nak apa?ikan bilis nak x?sardin?"

aku jawablah..."kalau nak beli ikan bilis..sy nak yg dah siap kopek je..."
Hahaha...punyelah demand mengada betol aku....pastu aku suh beli cili kering....
dalam kol 6 lebih tu dia kol aku suh amek barang kat parking bawah...
Sesampainya aku di rumah...aku bukak je plastik nampak 2 tin sardin..cili kering satu bungkus n ikan bilis TAK KOPEK lagi hokeyy!ala.....aku dah cakap nak yg kopek..tgk2..dia beli kat foodland rupanya..ni mesti dkt roundabout tu je..xpelah..dimaafkan..kat sana mmg xbanyak pilihan...
TAPI aku musykil dgn tin sardin tu...aku tengok2..sardin smiling fish satu tin (ikan senyum)..satu lagi SARDIN CAP CINTA!hahahaha...punyalah terbahak2 aku ketawa...aku pun msglah syaikhul..."sardin cap cinta?hahahaha"....malia ckp.."awatlah syekul tu sengal sgt?sampai ke sardin pun nak CAP CINTA..."
Pastu syaikhul reply.."yelah...mmg patutnya mcm tu lah...saje je sy beli brand tu..hahaha"
Yaya lak ckp.."kalau ye pun nak tunjuk syg...xpayahlah sampai sardin pun nak bg cap cinta...berat2"....
Terharulah jugak aku sebenarnya walaupun rasa sengal sgt!Bukan xde brand lain boleh beli....pilih punya pilih...CAP CINTA yg dia amik?xpela wak...thanks byk2 sbb belikan...tp mmg sengal la awak ni!Hahahaha..

Ni lah sardin CAP CINTA tu...

At last..aku xmasak pun sardin tu...aku masak goreng ikan kering dgn bawang n cili kering..pastu buat tumis air kentang+telur+perut tauhu..
hahaha nasibla encik syaikhul...merasa la apa yg saya makan utk teruskan hidup..
TAPI...dia sgt supportive...dia makan SAMPAI LICIN!tapi ofkosla aku mkn jugak..
HEHEHE....

Nasi Kerabu Oh Nasi Kerabu...

"Nasi warna biru?boleh makan ke?"
ni lah dialog first yg keluar dr mulut aku bila nampak nasi ni...Pelik betul la kenapa mesti warna biru?Pelik2...First time makan nasi ni masa kat SESERI dulu...tu pun..amik nasi ngan ikan goreng je..Yelah..mana lah tau yg nasi ni kena makan ngan ulam2 segala...Makan camtu je..dalam hati terdetik.."peliknya rasa...apa yg special sgt?"
Lepas drpada tu...xnak dah aku makan.....sehinggalah........
Aku masuk MATRIK kat changlun, Kedah...Roomate aku kelantanese..Farah..ngan Ija...Farah yg ajar aku mkn nasi kerabu..TAPI, aku xmakan budu....xdapatla mkn nasi tu..aku ckp kat Farah..Farah reply.."la...oyak ko mokcik tu xsey budu la Fana oiiii"
Hehehe..mana la aku tau bley plak asing2...Kat sana, nasi kerabu sgtlah murah..dua hengget leh dapat..Kali ni...Farah ajar cara makan yg sebenar...mmg sedap hingga menjilat jari.,.Dah hari2 aku bantai nasi kerabu je...manala x sehat camni...Kalau hari Rabu..mesti g PMC(pasar malam changlun)..byk gerai jual nasi kerabu...pilihla mana berkenan di hati...dah mcm2 jenis nasi kerabu aku rasa..dr warna kuning sampai ke biru...kat kafe C sedap n murah...kat PMC ada satu gerai tu..mmg murah n sedap..sempoi je balut newspaper je...Sampai dah dapat bezakan mana rasa yg lagi sedap...best2....pastu xde dah aku mkn nasi kerabu....dekat dua tahun gak..sbb aku masuk UNIMAS...sehinggalah.....

kak zie blanja kat depan arif hotel tu..nasi kerabu burung puyuh..kami pi beramai2...bak kata MENTOR, "BETOL2 HO LIAO!"sedapnya!!!!!2tahun xjumpa nasi kerabu.....licin pinggan tau x...hehehehe...pastu teringin lagi....pegi gak lagi esoknye..bengong...kali ketiga...ngan kak zie lg...gg blanja..hahaha...gila nasi kerabu dah aku...pastu..hsemate aku tanye.."habis tu, dia campur budu ke?awk kn xmkn budu..."aku jawabla..tah..dah lapar sgt...gaul2 je semua tanpa memikirkan kehadiran budu...sedap je aku mkn....dalam hati.."alamak, aku mkn budu ke?"..hahahah...sudahlah Farhanah...ko dah melantak xigt dunia...baru ko nak pikir yg ko dah termakan budu tu ke?lupakan jelah......hahahaha



*SEDAP TAU NASI KERABU*

I don't have anything to be proud of

Tadi tengah2 aku berdiskusi dgn kawan2 aku utk subjek ergo...Mak kol...mesti nak tanya pasal aku merajuk ngan abah.Ni semua pasal Lawatan Industri.Terus terang aku ckp, I'm not enjoying the visit okay.Terlalu banyak konflik.Buat kami stress.Buat aku bertelagah ngan mak abah.Campur dgn benda2 lain yg jadi...sehinggalah abah ckp...xpernah anak2 dia buat sesuatu yg membanggakan dia...Ye..adik xpandai..adik malas..adik degil..adik xmatang..adik manja..adik slalu susahkan mak abah..adik kuat main2..adik kuat merajuk n menangis...semualah adik..Bukan adik xbelajar..bukan adik sentiasa enjoy..bukan adik sentiasa main2..siapa yg nak gagal?siapa yg taknak berjaya?tapi belum ada rezeki..Sedih betul bila abah ckp mcm tu....sedih...sampai skarang pun melalak2 lagi...adik bukan xnak rajin...dah cuba nak rajin..tp malas gak..bukan xnak jimat..tp terbazir jugak...bukan nak degil..tapi terdegil jugak....

Cukup ngarut pasal tu...ye..sematkan dalam hati..tak ada apa2 dlm diri sy untuk dibanggakan...menghabiskan beras je...

EMOSI......